| Isaish 55:12
"So you will go out with joy, you will be led out in peace; the mountains + hills will burst into song before you + all the trees of the field will clap their hands."
my mask- the tree.
Still relevant to my life two + a half years later, is the idea of the mask I live behind. Now, as a freshman in college, I can still visualize this object being a true symbol for me. To reference back to an assignment I had received my sophomore year in high school, I was asked to find my "mask."
The simplicity of my mask is almost disappointing until your eyes see the complexity within the idea of a tree. First + foremost, I love nature. The beauty that God has placed on earth is almost unfathomable! The way I see it, God has the "tangibles" and the "intangibles."
Distinctively, we know what is in our reach + what is out of reach (our mistakes through trial + error + what becomes of them). So, photography is a passion of mine. I always try to find something captivating + worth my time in everything- having intentions to make it beautiful. Lavender + Green, my two favs, signify the tranquility + freedom when I am in my room at my parent's house. The branches of this tree symbolize a numerous amount of things:
The outstretched "look" to the branches of this tree symbolize the sole want of consuming knowledge I have within me! To be able to reach out + take a chance with anything that comes my way- because who knows if that opportunity will return? Not to mention, the idea that God has graced us with- that being- much information that we can obtain but the contradictory yet paralleling idea that we cannot absolutely obtain EVERYTHING- every bit of information in this universe. <---the intangible concept! Also, we could never imagine understanding how each tree on earth is incomparable. They are just so individualistic. <---also an intangible idea. Where this is a controversy, a tree is in fact tangible.
Returning to the primary "mask" idea, the branches also reveal the true complexity + vice that flows within myself. My emotions are always easier to express through my writing + I have grown to hide behind that. The over-analyzation is beneficial to an extent, but becomes a tremendous weakness when every thought runs like a broken record.
These branches + this tree, above all else, signify the genuine, loving atmosphere + the tangible presence of my family + friends; they are my roots.
As these thoughts are dominated by the "intangible" symbolism, the more "tangible" approach consumes these ideas of the tree being my mask:
My intense becoming of a natural state of mind. As I will be creating dreadlocks of my hair today, I know this is what people will see first about me. My mass of compacted, back-combed hair. They will not see me. Discouraging or not, I pray those that base the physical appearance above all else will be reminded of wholesome sacrifice + humbleness.
I will have begun this journey + hope to obtain it.
Mind you, that yes this is simply hair, however I am reminded that although this may sound like a simpleton cry for attention, it is not. It is that much more.
Not anywhere equivalent to Jesus' sacrifice on the cross, this act will always remind myself that Jesus had to give up that much and an infinite amount more which is ever inspiring + humbling because sacrifice allows God's grace to bless us + wash away our sins.
As I grow in learning about sacrifice, servanthood, + being a humble follower in Christ, I want to open doors of opportunity for others. I want to have open, comfortable discussions of life and embrace people's emotions as my own; take a walk in their shoes + ultimately commit myself to prayer + reflection + worship.
As I see it, my most genuine physical feature I carry is my smile. By the grace of God, I engage in the enthusiasm it brings to my life, but am also aware of the insecurities it holds. But I know that my faith can and will some day help to overcome this + through prayer and petition I will be blessed by God's loving hands in his time, for it is his plan not mine-
for this is a symbol of God's creation,
not of my own.
It is about God's creation + God's everlasting love.
ETERNAL LIFE.
It is not about me.
Fear the Lord, for he is omniscient.
Deuteronomy 6:8-9
"Tie them as symbols on your hands + bind them to your foreheads.
Write them on the door frames of your houses and on your gates."
Fear this time of transitions.
Love the Lord with all your heart. soul. strength.
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| All things new. A new chapter.
A new home.
A new area.
A new bed.
A new sink.
A new shower.
A new robe.
A new pillow.
A new window.
A new chair.
A new route.
A new classroom.
A new friend.
A new book.
A new teacher.
A new style of learning.
A new freedom.
A new sleep.
A new dream.
A new love.
All things new. A new chapter.
I am College bound to Fort Collins, CO...I'll miss this. Take care of yourself. |
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| this marks a year.
I do indeed miss my grandfather.
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Mathemaku No. 10 (1994)
existence divided by poetry equals love.
-somewhere, minutely, a widening
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existence
-bob grumman
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No eye has seen, no ear has heard.
give us strength God. |
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| i love to create.
count your blessings
and always tell stories. |
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| Well, it seems to be that time of year again.....
nahhh mean??
First Trimester Schedule:
1st- Theatre Art 1
2nd-Art 1
3rd- AP Bio 2
4th- Independent Journalism
5th- Dual English 4
Oh, to be a senior!
yeaaaaaaaa, its about time...
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